Ichii was the monger whisperer. He revealed to providers what we were truly looking for: love; and what we were really afraid of: death and the lonliness and abandonment of life. So we monger to fool ourselves into feeling that a woman can really give us affection--even if it's just a lame massage with a happy ending. The handjob opens a window to intimacy, and allows us to form attachments where we cannot otherwise do.
Ichii, like the rest of us, had so many demons, so much pain. I hope he finds peace and healing with Choi or someone else. What he posted was heartfelt and brave. Choi's words were harsh but her actions kind. Perhaps she cured him of his need to prove anything to anyone, which is why he stopped body building and more importantly stopped the steroids.
MP was a refuge for him, and probably for others like myself. Sometimes, in dark times, he's like a brother, a myth, a kindred spirit we'll never know. Godbless brother Ichii; god speed in that dark road of life.
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August 21st, 2016
